Monday, December 17, 2007

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He woke up. The alarm clock placed at the other end of the room had nothing to do with it. It was six a.m., too early for sunlit mornings during the winter months. Manx’s mother came up to his room and checked if he was awake for school. Like most days he was. On the rare occasion where Manx was not up his mother would tickle the bottoms of his feet until she saw him smile. Though for some time Manx practiced waking himself without the need of an alarm clock or device and got very good at this skill. But there were still days when he would stay under his sheets acting, knowing his mother’s tendencies.
Manx went to school following the progression he usually took during the winter months. He cut through a yard with an open fence that led to a small park with maple trees a few scattered pines, a playground, two baseball fields and an outside basketball court. If there was more than a foot of snow on the ground he usually stuck to sidewalks. Other factors played their parts- girls, friends, enemies of a youth’s proportion, seasons, and time all served as variables in the morning walk to school. Never did school serve more than a purpose of destination.
Today at P.S. 118 Manx was extremely bored and had grown tired of listening to his teachers. His English teacher, Mrs. Gridge, was reading aloud when Manx decided to get out a blank sheet of paper and pen. He started to draw an abstraction of a building, yet never following a point of perception. It came out of the ground one way, and just when you thought it was going to stop- it morphed into the end of another building falling from the sky, or somewhere. And the objects around the buildings were not drawn to scale; the whole picture itself followed no real basis. No right side up, no down side down- didn’t matter. Manx was completely focused. Complete attention to detail never too much time passed in between thought, lines, shades, shapes, picture. His teacher had finished reading and given out an assignment for the students to do in class. Soon after the order she noticed that Manx was not paying attention. She walked over to his desk from behind, stood at his back and hovered over Manx’s shoulders. Her shadow cast over half of his drawing, and at that point Manx looked into his creation far more intently with fierceness like it was the first time he had ever completely seen something. Mrs. Gridge swung her arm over his shoulder and snatched the paper from his desk, ripped it down the middle and threw it away while staring at him with eyes that told him what to do next. Manx sat motionless and unsure except for a little irony that pulled him apart because he could never take a lady who used hipster lingo seriously. Mrs. Gridge was well known for her untimely use of words she had untimely picked up from seventh grade conversations during recess duty. And on top of that she had no right to try and apply seventh graders conversations. It was just silly. Startled for reasons only intuition knows, Manx had been ripped from a dream as he felt a jolt run through his spine. Embarrassed because he knew the class waited for moments like this- they got by on moments like this, and ate lunch with moments like this, Manx lowered in his seat. But after these initial and raw shocks, there was a still and resonating tingle in Manx’s foot that had not been grounded.

The day passed and standard procedures went as followed: lunch, recess, classes, bell. In those linear hours talk formulated. Manx was the gossip of P.S. 118.
“Did you see the look on his face.”
“Hahaha., I bet he never does that again” crept through cracks of conversations.
Manx played along with the fun. At lunch the boys were sitting with Manx; many of which would have considered themselves to be friends with him raved about the English class incident. Manx laughed and saw humor in it but didn’t participate unless obligated. He didn’t care, that was all. A word here or there about it in response would do, but it was just to please. Other kids dramatized for certain reasons. And that is why matters like this always got the best out of other children breaking them down to tears or making them extremely melancholy for the rest of the day, or even week depending on who it was. The fragile Meredith McCoy could attest to that. It usually took the weekends to clear a child’s relative mentality. If the situation were substantial enough the parents would be notified. Perhaps a call to Manx’s mother would be in order from the teacher, or even better the principle. The slight threat of authority and fear of discipline can tear at a young youth’s heart. Not Manx’s. Not because he was a rebel or anything like that, but he understood that this thing happening was insignificant. He laughed at the ones who did take it so seriously. He had an inept ability to see the future, whereas many children’s mind can only comprehend the immediate. But don’t get it wrong, many elders were quite impressed with him and pleased to be around him, and he sought out their respect, at least at a young age. In this situation he felt no wrong, no error of judgement on his part.
It is safe to say that once Manx left school he was not apart of what had previously conspired that day. The other kids walked and talked vicariously with the dramas of school. Telling parents, friends, and younger siblings all that they had to offer. They shared what had conspired that day in school, who it was about, where it took place, why it happened-always including the embellishments, after all that is what people wanted to hear. Manx walked to his nearby home using detours to fill his delight.
This day in particularly Manx walked with a friend that lived nearby. Nick was a good fellow and meant no harm and Manx enjoyed his company enough. Sometimes he would invite Nick over to play afterwards. When Manx got home around 3:30 he greeted his mom who hugged him with her apron on as she prepared dinner, then asking how his day went.
“It was good.”
“What did you do at school today.”
“Nothing, kicked a homer during recess.”
“Goooooooood.” Manx’s mother said in her sweet and praising voice.
“When is Dad getting home?” Manx always asked for some reason or the other, even though he knew the regular time he was getting home.
“Five-thirty.” She stretched her voice out to Manx already skipping upstairs letting room for insignificant talk that need not be explained.

1 comments:

Brandan Baki said...

Sorry this took so long. I still want to respond to your comment on my piece. but here is this...

I love Manx. I love the name too. That sets you off right away. You start to question his name surrounded by normal people....Nick and Meredith.

I know that "manx" is a language that is reletively dead. And I couldn't get that out of my head while I read. Is this a child who can connect with something so deep that his vision is a language all of its own?

This is what I saw in his drawing. I saw his hand wander without Manx's intent. Manx wasn't moving his hand. The future was. His dreams and his soul moved his hand. All that he will know but doesn't yet know. The inevitable moved his hand.

And the teacher fought to keep these dreams inside. She discouraged him. A push for normalcy. Her job perhaps. She takes the train and puts it back on the tracks. She corals these kids to a mindset that is safe. What would be the best bet for financial security and sociability.

What people don't see is that a loose animal is a wild animal. A wild animal is a free animal. A free animal is the most beautiful thing you could ever be. A derailed train is a train that will do whatever it wants. no boundaries. This is what the world fears sometimes.

Manx seemed to connect with the 'forever'. The 'beautiful fantasy'. The building had shapes he had probably never seen. He could be anything, do anything.

But will he?When your dreams get pushed down over and over again, they can only take so much. All the pressure can eventually put out the flame. The desire.

In most cases, it does.